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presentation project for poetry, peace, and social justice class. [Oct. 22nd, 2007|08:57 pm]
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[>> PreTTy FucKinG |relievedrelieved]

 MARILYN MANSON LYRICS

"Coma White"
There's something cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile

‘Cause you were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid 
That lost all her dolls

You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today, today
Today to run away

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb

A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself
[chorus repeat]

 

    Marilyn Manson, born as Brian Hugh Warner, has been an influential figure in my eyes. He brings realism and controversy to the table with his lyrical content and symbolism. Manson has written all of his songs which usually clash with drug use, religious, and political aspects. ( Marilyn (band) )

    In this song I chose called “Coma White” off of his fourth album, Mechanical Animals, Manson portrays the world of drugs. In the first verse, he’s stating how drugs are able to make a person cold and basically non-human. There is no feeling, just pure dependence on the drugs. In the second verse, he writes about how no one is perfect, yet the feeling of imperfection can lead to the cause of drug use, to make yourself feel immortal, to actually feel important. During the chorus, Manson is explaining how there are drugs that are used in spite of fun and drugs in use for actual pain. In other words, a way to make yourself “numb” to the world and it’s cruelty.

    “Her mouth was an empty cut, she was waiting to fall” is probably one of my favorite lyrics he’s written. It brings such a strong perspective to the world of drug use. Manson is portraying how no matter what an addict has to say, no on listens which furthermore brings the dependence on drugs. Marilyn Manson, in many eyes, is just a waste of musical talent, but as for me, I believe he’s a lyrical genius. He actually tells what is really going on in the world without all of the fairytale nonsense added to his songs. Manson is real and so are the words he speaks.

    The reason I chose this song is due to my past. I’m able to relate to this song wholeheartedly. Unfortunately, I use to be very big into drugs. From crystal meth to marijuana. Take your pick because I’ve probably done it. It was a hard time in my life, I was very depressed and felt like no one would listen or care. Then I found drugs, which controlled my life for about two years. Drugs filled that empty hole, yet at that same time they didn’t, because once the high diminished, that hole became empty again. It felt like a bottomless pit and I felt I was spiraling out of control. Finally after one night of almost overdosing, my eyes opened and I realized, what am I doing with my life? I’m breaking off close friendships and my family was left in the dust. It’s a horrible feeling. Hearing this song, I’m able to cope with what I use to be and who I am now. I’m a person with feelings and hope, and Manson was able to portray it with words in an amazing song.





also had to play the song for the class and explain to them why. i was so nervous, but everyone was so accepting and supportive, i was quite surpised.


 
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2007|03:51 pm]
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[>> PreTTy FucKinG |dirtydirty]

 so spending over 36 hours in a hospital was the worst experience of my life.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2007|02:55 pm]
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[>> PreTTy FucKinG |contentcontent]

just got back from melbourne for 3 days. my cousin is leaving for the navy, he's becoming a seal. we had a going away party for him. majority of my dad's side of the family showed up, but it was only the family who matters so it was good seeing everyone. it was hard saying bye to him. he's a month younger than me.. we grew up together and now he's gone. it's sad man.. but he's ready and i'm proud of him even though i'm against the war. what can i do eh?
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(no subject) [Jul. 13th, 2007|10:55 am]
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[SiNgiNg OuT LouD.. |chimaira - dead inside]



siesta keys was amazing. spending four days away from this shithole with my family was a beautiful thing. my dad and i drank margaritas at the bungalow and got pretty tipsy, oh good times. the beaches were BEAUTIFUL and the sunsets were even more amazing. the place where we stayed was just so serene. it was amazing being able to do absolutely nothing and have a blast. i had such a great time. hopefully i should be getting some pictures soon, just have to figure out how to transfer them onto this computer. but as always as soon as i step foot back into spring hill, the drama ensues. oh how i love life and petty 5 year olds who think they know what they're talking about.

peace out, a-town down.


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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2007|08:37 am]
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i'm done. i graduated! goodbye central highhhhh!

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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2007|09:39 pm]
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[>> PreTTy FucKinG |draineddrained]
[SiNgiNg OuT LouD.. |tool - pushit]

blah. 3 more days and i'm done, for good, with high school and central. fuck off, goodbye. no missing that. this week is just going by too slow for my liking. show tomorrow night.. the stress is just never ending for me. one thing right after another.. and another..
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if this is sight, then i'd rather be blind.. [Apr. 13th, 2007|05:00 pm]
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[Current Location |room.]
[SiNgiNg OuT LouD.. |under my umbrella - incubus]

so here i am again writing about how, yet again, i fucked up. only exception to this time is i fucked up BIG time. i ended up almost flipping my truck on forest oaks on tuesday. see, it wouldn't have been so bad, but i had a few drinks before i started driving. granted i wasn't drunk, maybe a little buzzed, but that doesn't matter to my friend coppers. oh yay. i almost killed myself and my friend mike who was riding with me. it was horrible. after the second cop came there he decided to give me a field sobriety test. it was either that or lose my license for a year, but i knew i would be able to pass since i wasn't drunk. passed it so i shoved that in the fucking cops face. bastard. then after all the manhandling since i wouldn't cooperate, he decides to search my truck. i said fine since i didn't have anything in there. apparently i was in the wrong, but i really don't think so. he comes out of my truck, does a full search on mike (thank god he have his sac to jess when she got there) and then he shows my mom the weed. i flip out. i honestly think that fucking PIG set me up. i knew for a fact i didn't have any weed in my car cause if i did, well it would have been smoked already, heh. so they do a full search on me. yeah.. the only reason i was not arrested was because i heard him saying to my mom since i have a 3.0 gpa and i graduate in a few weeks that he will just let me go with a ticket for careless driving with drinking and driving on it. i did over a grand in damage, but i'm just glad we didn't end up rolling cause if the truck would have rolled like it almost did, mike and i would have rolled straight into that lake. scary thought. oh and the reason we didn't flip is because my axle or something underneath my truck got caught on a sewage drain which is what yanked us back down to the ground because we were on two tires. you want to know what that fucking cop tried to charge me with? a knick off of the sewage drain which "apparently" would have cost $200. um GO SUCK A FUCKING DICK YOU BASTARD. he also said these exact words, "you're lucky you didn't run into that brick wall because it's very expensive." excuse me? i'm sorry a brick wall is more priceless than two lives. fuck you. the worst part of this whole ordeal is how much i hurt my parents. i couldn't stay at my house that night so i ran for 2 days. my parents ended up cleaning my whole room out which was a bad idea on their part. they found over 7 empty bags of weed, pills from like 3 years ago, and that freezer bag full of beer bottle caps. what a smack in the face for them. they took me off their insurance and completely took the truck away. i don't even care about that anymore, i just hate how infuriated i am with myself for fucking up yet again and for hurting my parents so unbelievably much. not only that, but for putting them in $400 worth of debt.. i'm such a fuck up man. i'm so selfish, i never think of the repercussions of my stupid fucking actions. when the fuck am i going to learn? my mother still hasn't talked to me and it hurts, but i would rather her not have to look at my disgusting face. when i talked to my dad the night i came home he basically summed it up as i'm a scumbag, piece of shit. yeah, i deserved it, i know, but i wish they knew how pissed off at myself i am because i guarantee is doesn't compare to the level they're on with me. disappointing your parents time after time within 2 weeks time just has killed me inside. it made me realize how much i really don't like myself and it's not like i can escape. everyone keeps repeatedly telling me, "things could be worse" but nothing is worse than having to look at your parents faces when they see how hurt they are.. because of you.
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(no subject) [Jan. 21st, 2007|11:57 pm]
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[>> PreTTy FucKinG |sadbroken]

damn.. i can't believe it's happening again.
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(no subject) [Nov. 15th, 2006|02:51 am]
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look what i got today. =D
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(no subject) [Nov. 2nd, 2006|11:38 pm]
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so i turn 18 in 4 days. werd.
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